trust takes years to make, seconds to break and forever to repair.



"trust takes years to make, seconds to break and forever to repair."

the most powerful words I read tonight browsing comments on "drake - trust issues" youtube video.

I can relate so much to that so much; such a powerful comment that caught my attention. 

I had to cut a lot of people off throughout my life and even most recently, I had to terminate a common law relationship. had to sit back and re-evaluate it; to much trust broken; so I had to cut it off. 
if the same error keeps happening then it is clear. it is a choice. I find myself cutting off more people has I progress through my life. but its worth it, because a peace of mind is all I am focused on. 
less people; less stress; less drama; less problems. I am no problem solver but a problem solver of my own problem. I can only solve my problems; I can only solve my issues not anyone else's; and I don't expect anyone to. I don't want no hero; and I am not expecting one. 

independence is gained through self-awareness and I am strong and confident about my self-awareness.
I know how to protect myself; I know how to get away from toxic environments and I don't invest any time, energy or effort into them. they don't benefit me being toxic. it is a waste of time.
its very easy to lose my trust; and very easy to lose my focus and attention. and my trust is very easy to break. I could just cut you off and never talk to you again and act like you never existed in my life. very easy for me show you that rebuilding trust with me takes forever to repair.

well that is all I got to say for tonight. and I am going to listen to some music and call it a night.

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