whitefoxman: the one who walks the coldest path

My family never loved me. They resented me.  They envied me. They hated that I had a good heart despite there cruelty, there harshness, they werent taught to have loving hearts. They were only taught to hate. To envy. To cause suffering. To cause misery.  I never wanted to be like that or to be around them.  I was different.  I wanted to help people. I wanted to change the world. See the worst in the world and tell it and show it. It can change. We don't have to be so negative. We don't have to be so hateful. We don't have to be so toxic. We can change is what I want to leave behind in this world. if we can breathe, in hale and exhale we can lead. I always said to people in recovery. We can only accomplish by leading as an example. I always said to people... The greater the distance the greater the journey. I always said to people taking from the words of Errol ranvilles of c weed who was 30 plus years sober: "Trust God"...."clean house."....and "he...

Sobriety is the solution to all your problems. Going to the gym while sober will keep you sober. Exercising and working out will keep you sober. Exercising anywhere doing body weight exercises. Will change your life and better your health. When starting to exercise do small goals. Work small challenges. Work with babysteps. Work with a mindset of growth. Journalize it. Keep thriving to push forward. Keep pushing yourself. It's a me vs me world.  Trust me. Trust God Clean house Help others

In 2024. I had everything. I lived down the block from my kids. I had a home. I had conquered homelessness. I had a sweet routine. I lived alone in my one bedroom apartment. I had a healthy sex life. Every now and then I went out and had fun. Addiction was the issue. Until I let one wrong person in to my home.  Lesson learned. I wouldn't do that again. Got burned big time. The friend I let in ate up my food. Turned my home and life in to a struggle.  Mid-2024... My cousin related to me through an uncles marraige asked me to move in with him to escape my then crumbling home because of ex roommates bad energies left behind.  I agreed to move in with him. In mid 2024. Months were going good. I was handling my addiction. Well maintaining a home. Staying to myself. Cousin asked me to start dating again because he was tired of seeing me being alone in the room all the time.  I met someone special. Or I thought was special. She made me happy. But it seemed like no one wante...

Where do we begin with forgiveness.  Where do we start? I am still learning to forgive all those that have hurt me. Betrayed me. Decieved me. Stolen from me. That took away everything that made me happy. Someone in this world wanted to ensure I never have any success. Someone in this world wish that I suffer in misery, anguish, despair, anger, sickness, Ill health, poverty, homelessness.  Was it a friend? Was it an ally? Was it a lover? Was it my parents? Was it family? Was it my grand parents? Was it a teacher? Was it a mentor? Was it an advocate? Was it a stranger? For what we are certain of. Forgiveness can start in the mind. Similiar with hope. Backed with faith.  Forgiveness can start in the heart? But is it true if the mind isn't willing to forgive? Or forgiveness can begin in the soul? So the heart and mind can help the soul begin the phase of forgiveness? Am I right? Or do we ask God! Help me learn how to forgive those who have wrong me. Those who have lied about ...