My family never loved me. They resented me. They envied me. They hated that I had a good heart despite there cruelty, there harshness, they werent taught to have loving hearts. They were only taught to hate. To envy. To cause suffering. To cause misery. I never wanted to be like that or to be around them. I was different. I wanted to help people. I wanted to change the world. See the worst in the world and tell it and show it. It can change. We don't have to be so negative. We don't have to be so hateful. We don't have to be so toxic. We can change is what I want to leave behind in this world. if we can breathe, in hale and exhale we can lead. I always said to people in recovery. We can only accomplish by leading as an example. I always said to people... The greater the distance the greater the journey. I always said to people taking from the words of Errol ranvilles of c weed who was 30 plus years sober: "Trust God"...."clean house."....and "he...